I can’t help but think you still care for me. Even though none of your public Internet messages are directed directly at me.
…But I don’t want to hurt you again. (And I don’t know whether I hurt you by trying or by getting away.) (Or both.)
And I don’t want to be an obsessive stalker anymore that’s for sure.
I’m sorry for complicating our situation. My staying away from you, this is my attempt at simplifying our situation. A big part of this complication is that I tend to be very emotional over things like these and over time I’ve come to the conclusion this emotionality is not something for me to fight or to repress instead it is something I must deal with. Handle. Steer in the right direction.
Besides, you also agree right? That I should stay away from you?
(But God I want to be close to you again.) (Still.) (But not yet I know, not yet. I know you don’t want me that close yet either. Not clingy, emotional me. Not yet.)