Am I burning bridges again? At this office this time?
Oh whatever :))
Rock n’ roll.
6 Ways To Respond To Life's Little Disappointments -
Do something active. I know this may seem silly but exercise does give you endorphins.
I know that I’m out of your league. I’ve realized as much that’s why I had wanted it to be professional from the beginning. Its my own fault that I let my heart slip but that’s neither here nor there.
I respect how you don’t even want to give me the time of day anymore.
I’m still in the process of turning off the faucet handle (y’know, “you can’t turn off your feelings instantly like a faucet etc., etc.).
I’ve been thinking it’s unfair of me to give my heart to someone else when I’m still putting at least a small part of it in yours. But I’m thinking that little piece of my heart will always be there anyways no matter how small it can shrink so like….
Anyways, I’m glad you’re having a nice weekend :)
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Que sera sera. Love will happen, it just has to find me searching. Just like creativity n’ working. :))
To live life tougher and to stop complaining. Shut up and show up. That’s a concept, that’s a plan yeah.
And my decision to come home early has turned out to be fucking stupid. Locked our of my home, didn’t bring any keys, a neighbor died, and… And…
Fuck.
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Update: Lol nevermind sister’s home & she brought keys :))
I’m sorry I ruined things. I wanna make it up to you.
I miss the days when we were close and I’m very, very sorry to have ruined things.
I know it’s impossible to get things back to the way they were and I fully accept that.
It’s… you know how the more you’re told you’re not supposed to want something, the more it makes you want it?
I wish I could make things right. Somehow. What do I have to do?
Damn it.
Afterglow…
There are things that this overly imaginative heart would continue to wish for….
But to connect dreams to reality…
What was I talking about again?
Decisiveness. Killed by inadequate planning.
Failing to account for all possibilities, anticipating changes & turns. Losing energy by fighting decisions. Questions. The temptation to curl up and sleep. Escape.
Psy wars with people at home…
So much for using this vacation to recover mentally :)) But we’ve still got the rest of the real weekend I guess….
Breathe. Breathe. Move. Don’t stop.