Pseudonymous enough? Whatev.

Commitment is scary, but having one’s heart played around with is no fun either… Flings are all...

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:54:02 +0700

Commitment is scary, but having one’s heart played around with is no fun either…

Flings are all right, but be sure that all parties know what they’re getting in to. Because with mismanaged expectations, feelings get hurt, and words start flinging about. Words such as ‘maneater’…

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Or ‘player’. Or ‘fool’. Even ‘slut’.

They may not mean what they thought they mean, but hurt is hurt the same…

“Like I care…” It does hurt kinda, when someone you hope would care, says that they...

Sun, 19 May 2013 09:27:42 +0700

“Like I care…”

It does hurt kinda, when someone you hope would care, says that they don’t care…

It’s a signal, one might think, to either give up our try harder…

But to not care? I don’t know… I don’t think I can honestly totally not care one bit, I don’t know…

I don’t want to kill my heart. I’d die.

:))

Sun, 19 May 2013 08:10:27 +0700

:))

I refuse to believe it wasn’t—isn’t—love. I can refuse to believe whatever I...

Wed, 15 May 2013 17:25:08 +0700

I refuse to believe it wasn’t—isn’t—love. I can refuse to believe whatever I want :))

…But what’s more important, what do I keep in my mind & heart. To keep myself sane, and to help myself grow.

…And what do I throw out in turn.

merlin: theswinginsixties: The Velvet Underground — There She...

Sat, 11 May 2013 09:58:09 +0700

merlin:

theswinginsixties:

The Velvet Underground — There She Goes Again - 1967

Here’s a pretty pure use of the internet.

Hey! Listen to this fucking forty-five-year-old song I really like.

The heart is mindless and illogical; the mind, heartless and cold.

Wed, 08 May 2013 09:26:27 +0700

The heart is mindless and illogical; the mind, heartless and cold.

You’re good enough. Never, ever think you’re not good enough. If anyone thinks...

Wed, 08 May 2013 07:47:35 +0700

You’re good enough. Never, ever think you’re not good enough. If anyone thinks you’re not good enough it’s their problem not yours.

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Besides you’ll get better :P

Proverbs 14:16 NIV: “The wise fear the Lord and shun evil, but a fool is hotheaded and yet feels...

Wed, 08 May 2013 07:46:49 +0700

Proverbs 14:16 NIV: “The wise fear the Lord and shun evil, but a fool is hotheaded and yet feels secure.”

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I’m a fool, of course.

Have I done wrong? I’m pretty sure if it. What have I done wrong? I’m not too...

Tue, 07 May 2013 12:15:43 +0700

Have I done wrong?
I’m pretty sure if it.
What have I done wrong?
I’m not too sure…

(That’s what’s bugging me.)
(I just don’t think I get it.)
(I feel like an alien from another planet.)

I slept just now this morning. I dreamt I already had a baby child I was taking care of. As I was...

Sat, 04 May 2013 11:16:07 +0700

I slept just now this morning. I dreamt I already had a baby child I was taking care of. As I was bathing and caring for my child, as a single parent, suddenly I couldn’t seem to remember who the mother was.

I woke up startled.

Emotional balance is an illusion… …A presentation to the external; a picture you set up so that...

Sat, 04 May 2013 07:27:32 +0700

Emotional balance is an illusion…

…A presentation to the external; a picture you set up so that others would ‘get’ you…

But its okay; we don’t need to upset everyone around us just so everyone around us would see the ‘true’ You.

Even despite all those declarations of “Keep it Real!” Do they even know what “Real!” is?

We are all layered creatures.

It’s all right. Smile.

What right do I have to reveal my private thoughts in this private(?) forum, when these my private...

Thu, 02 May 2013 23:47:54 +0700

What right do I have to reveal my private thoughts in this private(?) forum, when these my private thoughts also involve the privacy of others?

What catharsis do I hope for by sharing my private pains & insecurities, when nothing comes of my sharing them here except for even more pains & insecurities?

Where do I find my truest friends, who will accept my inadequacies at face value, and help me to overcome them, instead of using these revelations as fodder to further humiliate me?

Not anywhere on cyberspace, it seems, for now…

I come here to seek counsel. To vent. Not to seek war. Not to hurt feelings.

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And these are the same insecurities which lead me to delete my Path account last time…

I must move on because you will not accept me as I am. I bore you. (No matter how you might find me...

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:25:06 +0700

I must move on because you will not accept me as I am.

I bore you.

(No matter how you might find me endearing. Once upon a time…)

I am still afraid that if I get too close to you i’ll just be upsetting you. So forgive me if...

Thu, 02 May 2013 15:18:00 +0700

I am still afraid that if I get too close to you i’ll just be upsetting you. So forgive me if I still keep things purely utilitarian. at least on my end. Because i still don’t know how to proceed without ruining things and/or causing excessive drama.

I know you want us to be just friends, no more and no less, and I am very willing to go down that road. But now is not the time for that yet. I am not master of my heart or feelings yet.

And yes I agree, I do not own you. Nor do you me.

I am still afraid that if I get too close to you I’ll just be upsetting you. So forgive me if...

Thu, 02 May 2013 14:48:30 +0700

I am still afraid that if I get too close to you I’ll just be upsetting you. So forgive me if I still keep things purely utilitarian. At least on my end. Because I still don’t know how to proceed without running things and/or causing excessive drama.

I know you want us to be just friends, no more and no less, and I am very willing to go down that road. But now is not the time for that yet. I am not master of my heart or feelings yet.

And yes I agree, I do not own you. Nor do you me.

Disclaimer: the following is a complete work of fiction. —- They’re both players. But she never lets...

Thu, 02 May 2013 06:43:00 +0700

Disclaimer: the following is a complete work of fiction.

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They’re both players.

But she never lets any boy get into her pants, while he on the other hand wants to get into every one of his girl’s pants.

Funny thing is, the one guy she is willing to let into her pants, is the one girl whose pants he doesn’t want to get into…

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(Or so it would seem at first.)

I feel no animosity towards you. None at all. I’m just afraid I might hurt you further if I...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 12:57:35 +0700

I feel no animosity towards you. None at all.

I’m just afraid I might hurt you further if I let myself get too close to you again.

(Get too close too fast.)

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Things will never be the same again between us, I know. But yes, things can & will get better. We both want it.

A self-reminder about how superficial this is. All of...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 17:24:02 +0700

A self-reminder about how superficial this is. All of it.

Doesn’t have to be, of course.

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Now: ACCEPT ME!!! xDD

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Sun, 28 Apr 2013 17:11:50 +0700

"Men and women are misogynistic for different reasons: men to marginalize women, and women to..."

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 17:11:16 +0700

“Men and women are misogynistic for different reasons: men to marginalize women, and women to ingratiate themselves with the men trying to marginalize them. Neither one is justifiable, but one is oppressive and the other is a (bad) strategy to deal with that oppression. One thus sees that if the men who are misogynists weren’t, the women who are misogynists wouldn’t have any reason to be. Ergo, exhorting women to stop being misogynists so that men will stop gets it precisely backwards.”

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http://www.shakesville.com/2010/01/feminism-101.html (via pomegranateblood)